When I was a kid I found this incredibly hot 3d anime gif on funnyjunk of two girls fighting, but very quickly, it turns brutal, and I watched this poor girl get her entire body broken and folded down piece by piece while she screamed.
It was the hottest thing I'd seen in my life at the time.
I could never find the source though.
By some miracle, later in my life, I found someone on 8chan upload the artists entire collection. It was almost like it was fated.
I loved those videos so much.
And I even made backups.
But once again, fate had other plans, and every backup I made failed.
I remember I had a translator help me track down the artists nicovideo account and I started following the artist on nicovideo as a precaution, because I had already lost all my backups of these videos before, but when I checked my account after I lost all my new backups, my followers were completely blank/cleared. I assume their account was deleted.
I no longer have any lead on tracking down this artists work, and I no longer am in contact with the translator who helped me.
It's heartbreaking to me that once again, It's up to fate whether I get to see those videos again, and I don't think I'm getting lucky again.