Hello. I'm on and off in this site for about 7 years now. This has nothing to do with self-pity for my dark fantasies or any kind of guilt. Though these things do surface sometimes, i've made peace with it. The point is this.

Because i've been into weird things since even before puberty, i've never trully turned on by the act of sex ALONE. Meaning lots of my fantasies usually have a sexual aspect to them, but, for example, the idea of simply two people fucking was difficult to arouse me to say the least.
To top all this off, the nature of those tastes has resulted in lots of porn, and to add to that, mostly animated porn (hence me discovering this site). Maybe because it was more detached from reality? who knows.

They're have been two incidents with girls where i couldn't get an erection. Sure there was a lot of stress at both times, being as inexperienced and nervous as i was, but the thought at the back of my head was also, "this is nothing like i've romanticized or sexualised before." The most recent one, yesterday, was with a girl i really like, she attributed the fact to stress and anxiety, and still wants to be with me. Ever since i can't stop thinking if i'm doomed or just overeacting. Only saving thought is that i could get an erection during an older situation with a girl i was much more confident with. And there wasn't even any real action.

The million dollar question is. Does this ever go away? or am i just nervous as fuck?

TL;DR : I CAN'T GET IT UP BECAUSE NERVOUS OR BECAUSE BDSM/GURO/PORN?