I view Gurochan and similar webs, because im into castration/genital mutilation kinda stuff, and there is a big variety of fetish here, most of them are on the serious side of horror.

Its been years now and i never thought about it as anything bad really, but recently im starting to think, that this is all really sick.
"if you dont like it, go somewhere else"
some might say.
But the point is, i do like it, a lot.
in fact, this is a rare and also addicting mind stimulation, that you can never get in real life, and looking back, i rejected sex just to masturbate (my poor gf) many times, because this is so strong.

I skip tons of beheadings, amputees, cannibalism, etc, even minors somethimes, on the way to my thing, just like you do.

I judge no one, but i call for your thoughts and opinions, are you sometimes look at what brings you to pleasure, and think "this is sick, i get aroused by some really sick shit, how did it come to this?"
Do you ever try to masturbate to 'normal' kind of porn even though there is for sure better content on the "heavier" sites? if its a yes than why?
Have you ever tried to stop consuming your 'guro' porn completely? how did it go?
Do you consider yourself sick to some degree? is this just a kink and nothing more?
Do you ever feel ashamed? damaged maybe?

Your thoughts, your opinions.
Thank you.