As I lay under a cancerously intense sun that is as painful as the mosquitoes, pondering how every parking lot could have been a grove of trees, grasses and bushes, full of life instead of wasted metal.. I think of the elites who laugh at notions of tire dust poisoning our lungs… and islands of plastic and rivers, once fit for drinking, now poisoned
..


I think of bodily autonomy and generosity and other things relating an individual's nature.

And I think of all the ignorance of the well meaning I have spoken with. And the sadism and greed of many who simply don't care about the kittens and puppies their minions and neighbors kill for fun.

So I have nothing in the way of hope, but still so many opinions and desires. If I have any hope at all, it is 2fold that we all get what we deserve someday.

But would I care if I had not suffered? If I could terraform a planet to my liking, would I care that we did more to ruin the Earth than to work towards making other planets inhabitable?

I think I would, looking at how I've reacted in many situations, and I look upon others, and see that we aren't *just* what we are raised with. But bothered I am, still, for even the well meaning of the privileged, there is extreme ignorance.

If you never have cared much for politics, have you been adversely affected by any law or economic policy? If you do, was it because you were? If you ever have been, then did you think much of the other side, and of who benefits and how fair or unfair it was?

How much has their opposition to your own well being or mere convenience raised rage in you? For example, not to keep making this only about my own losses, I despise those who opposed eradicating pests like bloodsuckers that spread diseases and give only itches and pains. I could go on, from urban planning to foreign policy, but the point this time isn't that I hate people, it's that I really could have loved.

Do you ever look at that has happened to you, and all that will, and everything about the world you hate, and imagine that despite the Hell it often is for so many, maybe it could one day be a great place? (If you say yes to that last question only because you want to genocide everyone not like you, fuck you.)