Sorry if this is too much of a blogspot but I think it's an interesting discussion.I used to watch femdom p*rn with "sexy" women, even tho I didnt fap to it, but since months ago I stopped and now fantasise about very modestly- plain clothed women doing femdom to me.I also even stripped it of the more bodily-appeal related fantasies and now it's pure masochism: The woman whips me, beats me up with a cane or stick, burning with small lighter or candle ,etc. Or ingestion of non-sexual bodily fluids (ear wax, snot, spit etc)
Im a catholic believer IRL so I even fantasize about a nun flagellating me and torturing me. I dont even muse about psychical contact but the nun just tries to beat the sins out of my body by bruising me, leaving me full of scars, blue and black spots and various kinds of mark all over my body.
Is this a specific form of masochism? I no longer like humiliation, or even curse words and mockery, and I crave the dominatrix to be dressed as a nun, or like a muslim woman wearing a full Burqa with gloves and face veil. I'd appreciate any psychological or psychiatric analysis ,even if it's just a wild guess\ shot in the dark