This belongs on gurochan because its an SM paraphilia and contains guro-ish elements (such as Hybristophilia and CNC)
I fantasize a lot about (nasvhille school shooter) Audrey Elizabeth Hale holding me at gun-point, or other form of cohesion, and raping me. fucking me while she taunts me\ humiliates me and tries to make sure I know she's discharging inside me.
Im all he hated: upper-middle class, white straight male, masculine, right-wing\conservative. I think of her looking up info on me and wanting to corrupt me trough sex and making me an obedient junkie for her.
Why do I want people to HATE me? Is it some edgy leftover from my extreme-metal teenage days? Do I fear people loving me because I fear I cant measure up to being a role model?