I know this is an anon board but I want to open up and share a mix of philosophy and also sexual fantasy\fetishism I have:I genuinely believe men and woman, both, should be chaste or celibate according to their State of Life.I also think both sexes should cover up- except the face, although monks and nuns may cover it-I DO feel attracted to women but avoid looking at them to avoid lust.
however I do have a fantasy\idealization for a woman whipping me with heavy and painful floggings:the south-african torture whip, bullwhip, maybe pouring salt or lemon juice into my red and blue tiny cuts and whipping-scars.I figured a sort of cheating way to do this:the woman is fully clothed with a burqaq-style cloth(im catholic not muslim btw) or even face-failed, she is blindfonded so she doesn't seem Im naked either; im naked to be vulnerable.So in this way, with no visual arousal possible, she whips me,flogs me, hit me with all kind of canes,sticks whips etc everywhere for hundreds of time per body part and instrument.
this is extremely complex and maybe idiotic IRL so my best chance is to learn to lucid dream and do that there.