update:

Things are not getting any better. Came over last night, tried twice, soft as a hamster. Started thinking if i have intimacy issues from the last girl i was "dating", that didn't want to touch me because she was religious as fuck. If it's not obvious yet, i haven't had intercourse in the past.

My girl is very worried and helpful, i've told her about the anxiety and my insecurities, i've even mentioned the PI-ED, and i only know her for like two weeks. Still, can't bring myself to tell her about all these stuff. She even offered to watch "what i liked" with her, but i'm not comfortable at all with the idea. Everytime sex becomes a possibility, i get more and more anxious, and not sure of what to do in the moment. She asks me what i like and i literally don't know how to answer...

I guess not hating yourself for your tastes is not the same as speaking openly about it.

Don't know if this thread is already dead, but anyone who'd like to share any experiences is welcome, though.