My mom never sheltered me from fucked up media, when i was around five i watched some movie (can't remember which, i know that it's a spanish movie but thats it) that had graphic depictions of domestic abuse and i was really scared of it at first but i had this fascination with it that i kept watching fucked up shit like that, at like age six i watched kill bill for the first time and thats still my favorite movie because of all the gore and how nostalgic i get when i see it. I've always found torture hot as fuck since i was young like i would get so excited whenever there was a torture scene as a kid and shit just spiraled down from there