I don't really feel guilty for fapping, but I am feeling the disconnect. In college, we were reading some edgy story, and in one chapter, a guy cuts off his daughter's tits because he's afraid he's gonna molest her because she looks like his sister. Everyone else was shocked after reading that, but I was kinda numb to it, since I've jerked off to plenty of ayaswan art showing the exact same thing, among much worse things like impalement and brainfucking.

I feel like I'm getting desensitized to this stuff, at least in fiction, and I'm afraid there's gonna be a time where I'll be with a friend or a GF, and I won't react the right way to a scene in a movie or an anime, and they'll just think I'm really weird or something.