Well, I can't delete this thread, but I do want to conclude some things.

First off, sorry about being so weird, everyone. I wasn't sleeping right because of medical issues and it was making my inherent paranoia far far worse.

Second, I'd like to thank everyone in this thread of showing support. I haven't spoken to the person since the incident, but I'm ok with that. I still don't know if she's even still alive/active, but I suppose I will never know.

Third, as many have pointed out, it was entirely my fault for the fuckup. Being so new to the RP scene, I didn't really know what was normal or how to go about interacting in this type of relationship, nor did I fully expect for the emotions to get so heated.

And lastly, if by chance you're reading this, person this whole thing is about, I just want to apologize again. I had no right to doubt you and I fucked you up way more than your reaction fucked me up. I hope you can get past this.