>>6576
Okay, I don`t mind answering so long as we stay civil.

It's not really a "want"...like wanting to be a doctor or a lawyer. Being trans feels like a deformity. You look in the mirror and what you see just feels wrong on a visceral level. And we are aware that transitioning doesn't solve all of the problems. There are plenty of trans-women who know they will never fully pass and it haunts them to the end of their days. If it were up to us, we would snap our fingers, have the "right" body and wave a magical wand so that no one knows the transition ever happened. We would just... Be who we feel we need to be. The problem is, that isn't how it works. Transition is a second puberty and your friends, family, and coworkers do notice. People eventually have to know and that's where things get bad. We lose friends. We lose family. We lose jobs. We all face a choice of losing all of that or trying to fit into our roles as the wrong gender. The choice is hard and terrifying which is why there is such a staggeringly high rate of suicide among trans-folk. We don't really want to die, but the loss we suffer with either choice is that heavy.

The attention we are receiving as of late is an attempt to inform the general public that 1. We exist and 2. We aren't doing this out of some sort of sick sexual deviance.

Every trans person has a different experience with their... Journey... So I can only speak for myself. I desperately did not want to be transgender. I hated myself for what I felt, and I tried not to think about it. When I was a kid I would have nightmares about it, about losing my parents. I went to therapy hoping I could work out she other issues in my head and I avoided that topic like it was the plague because I hoped it would just "go away". It didn't.

Well, my spouse and I started transition together and our doctor specializes in trans people. It turn out that in most cases there is evidence that in the womb the fetus is flooded with the wrong hormones at the wrong times... Or just the wrong hormones. This error can result in the development of a "male" brain in a "female" body or vice versa. The answers are still unclear as not a lot of research has been done.

I've approached my transition to people cautiously. I try to let them know that I'm not demanding anything yet, but a day will come where I'm not going to look female at all (trans-men like me almost always pass perfectly by the end of transition when it comes to casual day to day interactions with people...in the bedroom though... That depends on your luck and your surgeon).

I finally just accepted that I'm trans and started transition. Honestly, I feel much MUCH better. My depression (which was a mystery in origin to me) has disappeared. I'm only on testosterone right now (no surgeries yet) but I can't begin to explain the difference I feel not being dominated by estrogen. There is definitely a noticeable difference in my mentality.
Anyway, I'm rambling.

Questions?