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let's think reasonably you tried suicide several times and you would prefer being killed over getting money
I think it pretty obvious that you do not want to die at all or else you would be dead long time ago :) it is not that big deal to kill yourself.

I also sometimes get that feeling when I am overwhelmed with something or get in the situation which has no existence then it comes to my head too like how nice it would be to die now and get rid off all that crap.

It is interesting that trans people are so obsessed with death and not even because of some mistreatment.
this would suggest that there is some relationship between those conditions.