Nobody lives out my fantasies. My fantasies are exclusively visual and auditory in nature. I don't care at all what my fingernails digging into the inside of a vagina would feel like. I don't want to know what it smells like to torture a woman to death. The taste of her tears doesn't really interest me. I just want to see her face and body and hear her scream and beg. The rest is not only superfluous, it's an unwanted distraction.

I guess in theory, there could be people out there with very well-shot snuff films, or videos taken by serial sex killers, or something like that. On occasion, I've experienced a bit of envy for the FBI(or whatever agency) agents who get to see things like this. But realistically, that's sure to be only a small part of what is otherwise a tedious, difficult job. That's how real life is in general. Most things are more trouble than they're worth.