>>6665
That's the point. while you may think that you want to die in reality you don't, it is not some primal urges of self-preservation it is simply your desire to stay alive.

You may think "I want to die" like you can think other things but your "body" will sabotage you not letting you do what you claim you want and that is precisely the fact that you do not want that after all.
At that moment you just start inventing lame excuses and lie to yourself for why something prevents you from achieving your goal It does not matter if it is suicide or abusive partner or even getting a job. If you actually like your life on average you will resist any ideas to change it.

This I is why I prefer to ignore what stupid people say and just look what makes them happy.

here is one related joke:
in the Nazi Germany train of jews is going to the camp and one jew constantly complains I am so thirsty ... I am so thirsty...
everyone around gets tires hearing that and beg guards to bring him some water he drinks as much as he wants stops for few moments and continues to complain I was so thirsty .... I was so thirsty ....