I am jealous. But I feel like I did my share of harming others. Torturing (physically or emotionally) and killing are really shitty things to do IMO.

So I reshape my jealousy into hate towards the bad guy. Part of me may like what he did, but I don't fantasise about the poor victim, but rather about tearing him to pieces.

I guess in this sense I would love to live out my guro fantasies, but not the sexual ones.
It's just guilt probably.