Politics aside, I also have violent and sadistic fantasies. It used to be that the choice victim was someone who angered me. Some more deserving of it than others. Back then, I definitely used it as a way to cope with negative emotions.



In more recent years, I have fantasized about torturing and murdering people I care about, or people I find attractive. The homicidal fantasies are mostly sexual in nature, but I suppose they do still serve as a sort of coping mechanism. Whereas before, I used them to cope with anger, now they help me cope with isolation.