>>5279
Don't be jealous of coroners. A buddy of mine got a job at a morgue for the same reasons, to handle the bodies of attractive women but all he got was mostly old people of natural causes or in one case, a body so decomposed it was literally shoveled into a box. He lamented about how he never had a stripper or attractive woman die when he worked there, so even if you had that job, there may be the chance that you never get to experience it anyways (depending on your region).

I'm a little jealous of those that are boring and vanilla. It's those people who have a normal life where their "bad dream" is just endlessly falling, and not having their throat slashed open, shot and waking up in pain. My mind it terrifying and I would be in prison if I didn't have an iron will. I would love to do the things I think about and fantasize but I realize that it is something that will ruin my life and put me behind bars. I don't like the idea of imprisonment or something preventing me from living any semblance of a "normal" life. Having knee jerk reactions of suicide and murder to the most mundane events is tiring and I'm envious of those whose only worries are what they will eat for breakfast in the morning. Although there will always be a part of me that's like "ah... I wish I was the one that slashed her open", it's the normalcy that I truly envy.