I have…toppy or neutral guro leanings, but IRL I'm more of a masochist.

I have a genetic disorder that makes me dislocate my joints all the time because my ligaments and tendons are too stretchy. For most people the dislocations start getting more frequent and damaging in early adulthood. I thought maybe I could make the chronic pain more bearable by fetishizing it, so I would do shit like dislocate my thumb and duct tape it to my wrist like pic related and then masturbate while focusing on the pain.

I do sometimes get off to the idea of having someone pull all my joints out and fuck me while my limbs don't function. It's hard to get off to given how it feels though, so I have to imagine having doll joints for it to work.