I've been abused since childhood as well, but I don't know if it's led to any love of guro. I think my BDSM and other fetish tastes are related because I'm perma-stuck as an insecurely attached little kid who feels deserving of punishment.

what happened: witnessing DV+rape, threats and emotional abuse from my dad, abandonment by my dad (who was my primary caretaker), neglect, emotional abuse, and emotional incest from my mom, bullying and sexual assault from peers, grooming from an adult as a preteen and young teenager, abuse in inpatient psych ward as a teen