>I thought your pickiness is like usual, as you want that girl to satisfy certain standards like being certain age and beauty level. or you may be a bit disappointed when your cute role play loli will be a middle aged land whale in the real life.

Well, that's not pickiness, more of a "normal approach".

>As for not dating random girls i don't understand that problem. Dating is just

Well, I'm sociophobic. Or, more correctly, just don't care to go public. So I don't meet many girls anyway.Also, I can't date girls I don't love. And, considering that my "love of the physical body" is occupied for like…a decade now, for a girl to be able to become loved by me and replace the previous unwanted love, she has to be also special in a psychical way- e.e. be a hardcore sadist-maniac. And I can't just know if she's a maniac by looking at her. Often, the most cruel-looking girls are the most, dunno what's the word…humane? good? kind? but sadist girls can be "kind" too..

>Anyway if you do not want to give up on all hope you can still go back to role playing and gently try to push your partners into conversations about personal life
you may just get as lucky as Reg

Yeah, it seems that it's the only option. I'll also try creating "looking for a sadist gf, pm me now" threads in some of the guroforums, but, probably, I would get banned/catfished/trolled/downvoted and collapsed.