I doubt it but I was heavily abused..

Even now I'm constantly haunted. So many people are just cancer. They consume me in disgusting ways, my body is not my own. Then hate me when I fight back. If I win they resent me and glare like I'm somehow a thug robbing them or sonething. It's all hopeless and I always want to punch them in the face, or puke, or kill myself, if not constantly all 3. Even when I'm by myself or surrounded by strangers. I'm beaten down in the most disgusting ways and the emotional abuse makes it a trillion fold worse. Their faces.. I hate them so much. How they rub it in my face. Their lies and gaslighting and all they did to me.

It's far more than I could describe in a novel.


Yes I doubt this is why I like guro. Though I think influences my flavor of preference by the day.