There was (non-sexual) violence in my childhood. So, while having my earliest sexual experiences, violence was on my mind. It's not a coincidence that I incorporated violence into my sexuality and aesthetics. Also, my mother is WEIRD and defended me from my teachers when I got in trouble for drawing crucifiction erotica in art class or reading 120 Days of Sodom in study hall, got me tickets to Hostel in middle school and accompanied me to the torture porn movies I couldn't get into, never said anything about the snuff mags under my matress that she DEFINITELY found, etc.

But, I like guro. I get off on it, and it spurs my creativity. I objectively wasn't raised well, but if that led to me having a creepy taste, it's certainly better than coming away with PTSD or engaging in abusive relationships or the like.