Difficult to say really, but I think it was mostly the 'escalation effect' of seeking out more and more extreme porn as time goes on. Then again, I have always had a bit of a fascination with gore, death, etc (in games and films), so probably that steered me in this direction.

I've never been through any kind of abuse or depression. I don't have violent thoughts and I have no desire to hurt or kill people in real life. Nor do I have any hatred for people, women, or humanity as a whole. In fact, I'd say that I'm pretty personable in general. For me, it's purely fantasy. But so long as it remains fantasy, I'm happy to enjoy the most extreme, horrific stuff.