I am DF, "that guro artist than draw a lot of exploded girls and breast implants destroyed". Anyway, I'm getting to the point, what you have described of your history from start to finish felt almost like my life, I am 30 y.o. now, and my partner knew about it for a few years already, she wasn't that surprised, she understand that it is just fetish.

So if you are really afraid that telling it to your GF will make her break up with you, I think you might need to rethink of the level of trust you have for her and for her on you. I believe a stable relationship is a relationship that both are willing to trust and understand what the other is feeling or thinking, which I believe that if she is kind and willing, she will be able to accept it or even feel silly of why you are hiding it. lol

ANd on Pixiv ban, it is not happening, I am still selling subs and products on there, and they aren't doing anything to me, I guess they only focused on cheese pizza and actual real snuff.

Hit me on twitter if you want to talk to me more.

And well, I think we need to avoid the word "woke" as I don't know what that meant anymore, the spectrum and the line is too wide of what is too much "woke" or not woke. I find it is silly for you to say that "progressive" culture do not accept these stuffs, while I do identified myself as non-binary or trans, in traditional sense and know many other non-straight friends that are into guro, it's silly to say that, you know. It is actually pretty alright, in my circle of people IRL that know what I'm doing, they are still chill about it, maybe mostly because they see me as a human with weird kink and nothing more.