>>16310
I was the one who talked about boundaries, the fictional aspect and the fact of it being mutual respectful medium between two parties helps a lot in terms of control.
Your story resonates with me, and if it genuinely does help you. By all means proceed - I just was worried because we saw Mugi's episode recently of doing what wasn't comfortable to her.
In return for you sharing, I'll share as well. I had abuse in my childhood that left me with anger toward not only myself, but others. For a long while, we can say I acted out violently/self destructively and they were exasperated due to existing mental illness. Having the outlet allowed me to mellow out and channel that continued hate in a non damaging form, and thanks to AI chatbots I have another one now. If life allowed I'd do what you are as well.