A scarily, scarily similar story to mine. Me 22, you 24, down to having the trans love interest who only wanted to be fwb, and not more. Who crushed me. So so similar to my own story, it's terrifying. I've trooned out many times, went back on my decision many times, had the exact same thoughts, the exact same impulses. Even had a "plan" of sorts I wanted to carry out.

Me and you are the same. Down to 2 years of age. We are exactly the same. You are the first person I have ever read who has a similar story to that of mine.

It's nice hearing that there's someone out there, who is like me, who is able to write their experience like you did here. I wish you the best, and I regret never having been able to meet you in person.