>>17170
why the fuck are you even on a guro board??

>>16916
anyway, op, i find your post very relatable as well even as a cis woman; right down to wanting to use violence as a way out. a murder-suicide fantasy was what paradoxically kept me going for several years. and it was only when i learned to indulge fantasy on my own terms that i started to settle down a bit.

wishing you all the best, op.