Alright this is a topic for me thank you very much

I found a person with some fucked up self-esteem, who was in pain. It was easy to deduce they hide something funny since I am also do. Slowly but surely I've been building their character around recieving and inflicting pain, and am proud to say that now we both joke about suicide, genocide and gore around eachother a lot. They also feel much better, than before. Sadly can't fall in love with them for the same reasons, but just having an understanding person, who I can hurt from time to time is great