Ever since I can remember, I've had fetishes with people (nowadays, exceptionally female, but in the past my tastes were more "broad") being subjected to violent fantasies: BDSM, kidnapping, finally, Ryona, and Guro. I was only 6 years old when my friend and I played in kindergarten and we were heroes like Batman and Robin. We even had a corner in the schoolyard, a bush where we hid during recess to have a snack and it was our "bat-cave." Even so, even though we were the "good guys," there was one time I saw a cute girl and suggested asking her to play with us (in this case, I wanted to change roles and be a serial killer >:D ) but my friend didn't want to know about girls and made me give up on the idea... :/

And speaking of Batman & Robin, back then (the 90s) they were still re-running the classic Adam West series on TV, and in retrospect I realize that that series, even though Camp, comical and childish, influenced me a lot in my fetishes with danger and bondage, due to the huge amount of traps that Batman and Robin (especially Robin, who was a very androgynous figure) were subjected to... I think a lot of my taste for kidnapping, tranquilizer darts, ropes, and deadly dangers came from there...

But things got even more hardcore in my head when I was still very young and watched Robocop, and the scene with Murph (and several others from that same movie) made me obsessed with people being shot.

When I was 10 years old (not yet old enough to masturbate) I was on vacation at my cousins' house, and in the early hours of the morning I saw my aunt watching some "Death Wish" by Charles Bronson, which started with a maniac invading a school with a high-caliber shotgun and shooting each of the teachers that appeared... This left a big impression on me, and that same night, I fantasized about a sexy girl on the cover of a notebook that I had (at that time it was normal to have covers of children and teenagers with very "hot" themes) tied with barbed wire while I was a villain who threatened to kill her while also grabbing her

shortly after I discovered masturbation, and it was a "mess"

I had a "normal" adolescence (of course, very focused on violent fetishes, but I kept them to myself) and somewhat frustrated, because at that time, movies and series no longer met what I wanted to see, I mean, in violent action movies men were mere bags of blood, but women always had their deaths softened and even romanticized, I wanted to see the same brutality with female characters and I simply couldn't find it on the mainstream...

everything changed in 2007 (when I was in my 20s) when I was browsing "Image Fap" without knowing yet what I wanted to find, typing things like "bloody" and "violence" and finding fragments of BDSM porn that didn't excite me that much... SUDDENLY, I find nothing more and nothing less than HOSTILE TAKEOVER (and an artist called zerns) simply the materialization in comics (even if amateur) of ALL the profane desires I had since I was a child... I couldn't believe it, it wasn't possible that there was another person in the world like me, my heart jumped to my throat, and my vision went dark... after that I realized that on the internet there were indeed subgenres for the strange things I liked, Ryona, Guro... soon after I ended up here