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> There is one problem with fictional violence(when you imagine yourself as victim) is that it cannot exist as if you are fantasizing about being raped or attacked it automatically becomes a consensual thing.
> Same thing with fictional fear horror it cannot exist because you are fully aware of everything and thus there cant be any fear or tension.
> If you desire it to happen it cannot happen against your will, because it is your will.
> What you describe seems more like a fantasy about someone else than yourself and that another you is supposed to feel all those things while real you is only observer.