Dear Mom and Dad,

I have a new hobby. I work about one day in three, and on the other days, I've been visiting the studios just to watch. Since I'm registered as a performer, of course, they have no problem letting me onto the sets.

So, in the last few days, I've seen some cool things. One was a solo scene. Remember when I used to complain because you would only let me watch that "kid stuff"? Finally I understand why you liked those videos so much! This girl's sensuality was so powerful, it just sucked me in as she was masturbating and strangling herself. It was as though I could feel what she felt the whole time, every tweak to her clit or tug on the silk ribbon around her neck. All by herself, she was sex to the ultimate power. I'm not ashamed to say I blacked out when she did.

Usually we think of death coming at the climax of a scene, but I saw one where it was foreplay. There were four guys and one girl, who did this very sexy striptease for them, while they fondled themselves and stripped, before letting one of them take her head off with a fine steel wire. So, while the other three took her in the ass and the pussy, and down the throat, the guy who took the head slipped his cock up her throat and fucked her out the mouth. I really wanted to jump in and make out with her, kiss the head of his cock as it came out through her lips!

Maybe I can get into a scene like that in one of my films. The other thing it made me think of was doing it girl-girl -- snuffing a girl, then licking her out, sucking and juggling her tits, and all that while she cools. I know there have been scenes like that, but wouldn't a whole film with that theme be great?

Love, Jenny