Yeah, I must have explained it poorly. I do that.

Tbh, your comment confused the everloving shit out of me because it's the exact opposite of how I live my life. That, "Well, ideas always look much better than actual results :)".

My ideas are shit. Nobody ever knows what the fuck I'm talking about until they read it. My results are pretty much always better than my ideas, and I mean... most writers work like that? People talk about how they do like, a basic outline and then throw it away because the story is never going to be what you wanted. Ideas are hard and awful. Results are always better. That's why it's so hard to write pitches even if the book or show is great. Because the pitch is irrevocably going to suck, even if the product doesn't. It's hard to just sit down and explain shit. It's easier and better just to do it. But I've never tried to post porn online before, especially the shit I'm into, which gets pretty dark. So I didn't want to shot in the dark it.

What I meant, and I think I figured out where I fucked up my explanation- is that they (the pets) would have been trained to treat ANY attention as GOOD attention. And human people (and other social animals) NEED attention or they'll go crazy. That's why solitary confinement is a form of torture. So when I said, "Crave any attention, even pain or death" I should have included something like, "because they've been brainwashed." I just thought I had covered that and I guess I hadn't. But that's more what I was going for. That they're completely dependent on the upper class because they've been trained to think that they have to be, and thankful for any attention they get, and see themselves as disposable.

Narcissists don't actually need or care about attention; they're self obsessed. Like... that's part of how that particular disorder is diagnosed. People with narcissistic personality disorder straight up CAN'T crave attention because the emotio/social center of their brain doesn't work properly and they are incapable of caring what other people think of them. Like, it's not that they don't, it's that they can't. They couldn't if they wanted to. They literally only care about themselves. If someone says something negative to a narcissist, they can't care. If someone says something positive to a narcissist, they can't care. It's a really lonely existence, and sometimes they'll be sad about that, because they know they should be, know it's not normal- but they just /can't/.

The pets are pretty much the opposite of this- mostly neurotically people who have been brainwashed into codependent relationships that would be, in our world, immediately be identified as abusive. But in their world it's just accepted and common. That's the reason that I didn't want to just publish it any old place. Because it's so obviously abuse and so obviously fucked up. But then I found this place and I thought, "...maybe."

I also thought about bdsm library but nobody ever comments there. And if I wanted to post without getting any feedback I'd just write for my damn self and never put it out there.