>>15946
It was real. In so far as, I wrote honestly from my heart. It's a train of thought I wrote from a cellphone in bed without going back to edit.

Regardless of weather or not I deserve to, I found someone to talk to and feel better. I won't ruin the earnestness of this by pretending to be miserable just to continue the game, I'm not good enough a writer to fake such self-disdain successfully.

I am glad my emotional state, temporary as it was, could provide something for anyone. Maybe I'll return to this. As a character, rather than from a real place. Maybe I'll write from other places of fear or insecurity I have. Or just come back when I'm feeling down.

Maybe I'm not so low as to be undeserving of a name.

>>15945
I may feel better, but I still can't imagine a version of myself which is worth almost anything at all. The most I could do is say I'll try to plan to make an effort to imagine something like that.