But in a way that’s what I’m saying to understand what she’s lost. You have to understand what she is now and how she got from being 12-year-old human girl to being what she is now I know it’s a strange comparison, but it’s like Frodo from the Lord of the rings spot if you read and look at what he is in the beginning of the ball beginning of the trilogy and then skip over to the last book another readers trying to figure out how we went from being what he was to understanding what he is now and understanding what was lost